Jane Eyre

About a month ago, my sister introduced me to Jane. Ever since then, I've been obsessed with her. I read her at work everyday and she's taking me quite a while, but finally I'm almost done (she's a teacher in St. John Rivers' school right now) and my sister said the best part is coming up soon.
As an English major I feel as if I'm so behind on reading all the classic novels. I made a list of books I want to read ASAP.

Jane Eyre-Charlotte Bronte <3 <3
Emma-Jane Austen
Wuthering Heights-Emily Bronte
The Count of Monte Cristo-Alexandre Dumas
Animal Farm-George Orwell
Brave New World-Aldous Huxley
Frankenstein-Mary Shelley
Heart of Darkness-Joseph Conrad
The Invisible Man-HG Wells
Catch 22-Joseph Heller
A Tale of Two Cities-Charles Dickens
Notes from Underground-Fyodor Dostoyevsky

I started reading The Invisible Man last summer at work, but I left it there and couldn't find it the next time I went to work (who would take that book?) I also read a lot of Notes from Underground senior year in high school, but it was second semester and I don't remember any of it.
I definitely want to read more Charlotte Bronte and Virginia Woolf. Henry James? Not so much. I know it would be a good idea though.

Paula Creamer

No one ever notices my dimples,
...maybe that's because I have tons of them.
No one ever comments on how fast I go,
...maybe that's because I'm gone so quickly.
No one ever asks me for my name,
...maybe that's because it's written on me.
No one ever understands the pain I feel,
...maybe that's because I'm hit daily.
No one ever pays attention to what I want,
...maybe that's because her wants actually matter.

I'm yelled at, tossed around, and smacked repeatedly,
...but I don't have a choice.
After all, I'm just a Precept 4. The lady in pink
...is the one calling the shots.

Fire and Ice

Some say the world will end in fire,
Some say in ice.
From what I've tasted of desire
I hold with those who favor fire.
But if I had to perish twice,
I think I know enough of hate
To say that for destruction ice
Is also great
And would suffice.
.....-Robert Frost

Route Nineteen

A concrete garden sprouts on Route Nineteen

lush with weeds, moss, and plants,

fertilized with sewage waste,

and ripe with the smog of exhaust fumes.

A lonely sunflower grows in a concrete garden

on Route Nineteen, out of a sewer

full of unwanted plants

in a roadside garden.

A strip of sunlight shines on a lonely sunflower

as it struggles to survive

in a highway haven on Route Nineteen

against the odds of a polluted sky.
 

A looming cloud blocks a strip of sunlight

from feeding a flower

in attempts to water

a concrete garden on Route Nineteen.

The pavement on Route Nineteen provides

a special sort of environment 

which allows a sunflower to flourish

alongside the weeds in a sewer

on the side of the road.

Combination Lock

Wandering down this aisle
...of aged and dusty books
I wonder if the 'how to do this'
...and the 'rules for that'
are as outdated as
...the silver haired librarian.


In school we were always taught
....formulas, rules, and lessons
which were to lead us to success.

In school we were never taught
....lying, cheating, and stealing
might also lead to success.


In school we were always taught
....friends, relationships, and parents
would be there for you in the future.

In school we were never taught
....friends, relationships, and parents
would likely let you down in the future.


The teachers and the books
...prepared us for the simplest part
that we could have figured out ourselves;,
...and misguided us to believe
that the world out there was fair.


The would out there is not as simple
...as the combination lock on your old gym locker,
thirty four, twenty six, seventeen
...every single time.


No, the world out there guarantees
...that your lock played a dirty trick on you,
thirty for, twenty six, seventeen
...will never work a second time.

What to write about?

Recently I've felt like I don't have anything to write about. I keep trying to write about something at work, but I normally get interrupted and actually have to start doing something and lose my train of thought, or it just turns out like crap (and I mean worse than any of the crap I've posted on here).

Hopefully something will come to me soon. My 13 (14?) year old cousin is coming to visit tonight and staying until Saturday night. Maybe she'll provide some entertainment. It's sure to be a blast from the past of pre-high school drama.

Speaking of nothing related:
Healthy Foods - I need to eat more of these 

In other news, I really need to start working on my visa application. London is in a little over two months!

Catnap

.....One by one, the frown lines on her forehead and around her mouth smooth out until she looks completely peaceful. Sleep has overtaken her, whisked her away to a dream land in which stress and expectations do not pressure her. With her face flush against her pillow and her body wrapped in a fleece blanket, one has to wonder if she's laying on the beach, enjoying the sun in her dream.

.....The corner of her mouth twitches and suddenly she rolls over onto her back. Her hand blindly gropes for her phone under the blanket.

.....8:20 pm. She scrambles to find her history book, which fell on the floor as she dozed off in her bed. The frown lines creep back onto her small round face as she realizes her time left to study is rapidly decreasing.

.....The cover of her book seems to open itself as soon as she touches it, as if it were bursting with names, dates, and events that she needed to remember. Along with them were her old friends, stress and expectations, hovering quietly over her shoulders just in case her thoughts slipped away to a more pleasant place.